FantasyWriter
The Past

It’s amazing how things change. I am clearing out my room so I can move all my stuff back home, and I found an old birthday card from an ex. The card contained everything that I thought was great about her, her humour, her thoughtfulness and it clearly showed up much she cared.

We had a rather awful break up years ago, yet looking back it feels odd that there was so much there. Strange how some things never die. 

What A Day

So, I’ve been organizing my room, and in the middle of it, I decide it’s such a beautiful day, that I decided to go up Dumyat. Man, I forgot how beautiful it is up there. Was a good walk up, which started off my fitness kick! Aiming to be sorted by new year, a long way to go, but I am confident I can make it. Got a lot of weight to lose.

Also, I’m getting my hair cut for Maggie’s wedding, and I think I’m going to keep it short now. Things are shaping up! Honestly, I’m amazed at how quickly and well I’ve managed to turn things around. Things are looking great for the future! :D

Your Heart is Free, Have the Courage to Follow it

The amount of relief I have gotten now that Uni is almost over is incredible. I’ve accepted that what will be will be, and I’m not going to look back on it. If I pass, great; if not, it really doesn’t matter. There are so many different ways in life to achieve your goals.

Maggie’s wedding is coming up soon, so I best go get my kilt as soon as I get back home. For Allan’s stag do, we’re going to be going go-karting! 

I’m hoping to get down to Newcastle some time in the next few weeks after the wedding, see a few of my old friends and hopefully make some new ones as well. It’s been awhile since I’ve been down, and Lydia is going to let me crash at hers, which will be awesome! I have barely seen her since we broke up, so it’ll be great to have a big catch up!

Also look out for updates on a new blog or updates on a work out progress. Don’t know if I’ll make a separate blog or just post it here, but I’m going to attempt to lose all the weight I gained at uni over the summer. Going to start swimming again, and I’ll go up Dumyat as often as possible.

While all of this is going on, I hope to be writing for several hours every day. I’ll be writing about the F1 for a website, but I’ll also likely be posting short stories here and on my wordpress while I continue to work on my book. Obviously, while writing, I’m going to need to get another job somewhere to keep myself going. I’m not sure exactly where I’ll work yet, but to be honest, I’m not to concerned about where I work, just so long as I get a job. This job is temporary and so it’s not important. If my writing takes longer to take off than I’d like, then I’ll try and find a better job, possibly fixing and building computers as I am already qualified to do that. 

I’d just like to say to everyone reading this, that you most definitely should follow your heart. Look forward in your life and find ways to make your dream come true. Sure, it will likely be hard and cause you a lot of stress, but if you don’t try you will never make it. In life, the people who get hit and give up are never the ones you read about. For you to be the best you can be, you have to take everything life throws at you and keep moving forward. If you can keep moving, after everything life can throw at you„ you’ll gain such a high level of self respect. You can say to yourself “I did not quit”. In my opinion, that’s the greatest thing in life you can do. It doesn’t matter if you have stalled before and become stagnant over time, from now on, keep moving forward.

The Sunrise

I don’t know where you are in the world, but I hope for you it is as beautiful as it as for me. Barely a cloud in the sky, the sun gently rising. The air is beautiful and fresh. This is the best reason to wake up in the morning. After everything that has been going on with coursework and such, it feels good to be able to relax and just enjoy the beauty of the world again.

For me, slowly seeing the world wake up is so refreshing. The birds are singing, the early risers are walking the streets, going about their business. Probably the most amazing part of being in Dundee is being near the Tay. A morning like this really makes you appreciate the finer things!

When I rule the world, I will make every morning just like this one.

A few updates!

Right, where to begin? Suppose I should start with the most recent news!

I was informed that there is a website looking to hire writers. It would be for the summer to write about the f1. Now this is my two greatest joys in the world joined together. I couldn’t ask for a better summer job! So I’m going to receive an email later about the job; here’s hoping I can beat the competition!

However, I still have two weeks left of uni! Got a hard week in front of me, but I’m hoping that I can get everything done on time, and not let my grades suffer. Two deadlines this week, with three presentations next week, along with more deadlines. 

I’d also like to mention over the past few days people have really astonished me. I thought I had everyone figured out, but I could not have been more wrong. Over a short period of time I have noticed several people change rapidly in incredibly unexpected ways. However, this has also been countered by people who shine through their masks and barriers when the need arises. People who I thought to have lost what made them special returning back to themselves when the occasion arises. It brings a refreshing change!

A great friend of mine sent me a letter to help with everything that has been going on in my life lately, and she really inspired me. It’s wonderful to see the emotion and care she took to help me see things from a different perspective, and I’d like to thank her so much for doing so!

Alas, I’d love to stay and chat all day, but I have to get back to uni work. Until next time folks! 

Good day!

Well, this morning has been good so far! Still not sleeping, but I’m feeling good :D The less you sleep, the more time you have to put things in perspective! Now, to go about righting my wrongs.

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Great, and now I just blew up at my mum as well. I am turning into an absolute bitter cunt.

Rant

Firstly, I apologise for my rant, but I’m needing a release.

So yeah, me and my ex have been fighting a lot lately, mostly because of me I will admit. I couldn’t work out what went wrong, and it was pissing me off and upsetting me something awful. However, we worked through it and started talking again. Now however she tells me about this guy she’s buggering off half way across the world to stay with for a month, and expects me not to be upset about it.

She was talking to him all the time apparently when we were together, and even though she doesn’t admit it, that caused a distance between us, because she was taking comfort with him instead of with me. She begrudged coming down to my flat half the time, and now she’s going to Arizona to live with someone else who is ‘just a friend’. I highly doubt that. Whether she realises it or not, he is going to try something. You don’t invite a lass to come half way around the world and live with you if you weren’t planning for anything to happen. She thinks I’m being irrational and crazy, but I think she is being incredibly naive, and more than likely on purpose.

I know it’s no longer my place to get upset, but from having someone as your best friend as well as your girlfriend and then having some other guy on the internet steal your spot for both is just rage worthy. The worst thing about it, is people on the internet are never who you think, they can act perfect because their flaws are never shown. Furthermore, I couldn’t even do anything about it, because I never even knew it was happening.

A week ago we were talking about maybe getting back together, and now I’m staying awake all night incredibly angry and upset. I’m I being crazy that this upsets me so much? 

I apologise for the rant, but I’d quite like someone else to give me their input.

The Future

I’ve been thinking about a few things lately, such as changes I need to make. For the immediate future, I need to focus on uni, but once that is done, that opens up my time for a whole lot of things. Firstly, I want to redesign my room. I will be making it more organised to help with my writing. I will hopefully be getting a new bed as well, as my current one is rather uncomfortable.

 Once I’m home and settled, I need to get a job. Honestly, I don’t care where I work, I just want a job, and get myself settled into a routine. This way, I will have money coming in, allowing me to enjoy my life, but also means I will be able to write without stressing about my finances. I’m going to plan to be writing for at least an hour a day once I have organised my room. However, I will do more at the weekends! (Unless I work at the weekends…then I’d do more during the week!) So hopefully I will be gracing you all with a lot of short stories and making a lot of progress in my novel. I may post further updates of my book on here, about what directions I am taking, my thoughts on it, struggles etc. and possibly some extracts.

I would also like to address my social life. Over the years I have been at Uni, my social life has suffered instead of flourished, which is surprising. I left a lot of great friends when I came to Uni, and I would love to reconnect with them all. I would also love to create new friendships as well!

Alas, now I need to return to my work, deadlines are approaching, and I still have a lot to do. Wish me luck!

In the Morning..

…you know you are going to struggle. Decided that I’m going to start getting up at 5 in the morning to go for a jog around Dundee. It’s going to be hard, but I need to start getting in shape. Hoping that doing this will get me ready for the day ahead, as lately uni has left me with utterly no energy. So, to overcome this I need to make a drastic change!

I have a few weeks left until my hand ins are due, and I am not ready. I need to start focusing.  I hope that a brisk jog for an hour in the morning will help get my mind in gear while also helping me to get fit. Here are a few things I’ve been thinking of -

My brain needs a kick start to get going, as it is currently laden with a lot of uni stress.

Jogging this early in the morning will give me fresh air, which will help clear my mind :D

The streets will be empty, so I have the city to myself.

Even a light jog will help get me fitter, as I’ve let myself go in recent years. I want to try and lose the weight I’ve put on since I got to uni.

Jogging is a start to something new; I’m considering learning a martial art, which I would obviously need to be fit for. (May also start swimming again)

All in all, it’s not a big step, but I’m hoping it will have a big effect, and help me get fit again. A few years ago I was always running and jumping, swimming and racing. Hopefully I can surpass my expectations and start down a road to a healthier me. :D

Any tips on how best to succeed? Any assistance you can offer me would be greatly appreciated :D